I miss my son too much. I am trying to stay around for him but I'm slipping. The pain of not having him with me is too much to bear. The cruelty in the way my ex got custody of him is too much to bear. The fact that nobody did anything to help us at any point. The fact that so many people didn't believe me when I said my ex was abusive. Every minute of every day without my son is unbearable. There's no court hearing for months, courts are slow, aren't they. I don't have months.