I just take it anymore.It is to overwelming to deal with and I just want it to go away! After 4 years I'm pretty sure it won't go away and after what happened today it is bound to just get worse! I have truly lost all confidence and take no risks anymore. I never do anything unless I'm 100% sure what the outcome will be. It is just hard to live live like this and makes me feel lonely all the time because I have no freinds that I can trust to talk about it to.