I'm being emotionally abused; the last thing my kids father said was "Don't talk to me unless you say you are moving out" He always puts me down, yells at me, if I talk to him I get screamed at, I can't tell him anything because he always turns it around to be my fault. I'm super depressed bc my loving husband died in 2010; I know what true love is and I have found the devil. And his abuse makes me want to die. I have no place to live, no family, no place to take my our kids, He doesn't want them and complains about them all the time. He told our son to move out (he's 4) the other day. He doesn't back me up w/ the kids, my kids yell, tell me they hate me and call me names like he does all the time. I'm having a nervous breakdown. My parents are gone, everyone is. I have nobody to turn to. I'm sitting here all alone right now praying to god for him to take me to heaven. It's weird bc after I prayed I felt peace. But I can't stop crying. I cook, clean, take care of the kids, take the trash out, clean the cars, clean the garage, the backyard, feed our pets, do every single solitary thing in this house I even clean his stupid room bc I sleep on the couch; but it's not good enough, I'm not good enough. I hate him HATE him. Fuck.. My life sucks, why not die, I have no other way out of here.