So much pain physical and mental.. I've stressed myself out so badly with my thoughts that my body is attacking itself.. Now my phyical irritation preoccupys All of my day that I constatly worry about how I could have avoided the stress, it's a vicious cycle. All this stress is causing my body to attack itself even more causing more physical pain. I'm unable to watch TV without the underlying feeling of my skin burning, being irritated and tingling. What's worse is the irritation is around my mouth the most senstive area.. My lips peel.. THe skin around the sides are red and produce no moisutre with my lips thanks to sjogerns. I look like a freak and more imporant Feel Horrible... I'm such a chicken**** or else I would have offed myself weeks/months ago.. truth be told I don't really want to commit suicide it's looking like the only option to get away from this most miserable existence that is called my life. I got in a big arguement with my mom months ago and I expressed how I wanted to kill myself when looking in the mirror. after I punched the wall threw a glass it escalated and she said "go ahead do it" and left. I went down to my basement with my belt and contemplated hanging myself on my chinup bar. That was before I was feeling so irritated around my mouth.. I want my old life back but that's not possible the only option is death. I put myself through so much pain everday, for what? For the slim chance things might be bearable or return to my old life. My dad promised me that things would get better then my old life but I don't think that's possible. This life ain't for me I'd rather die. I want to pass without pain or shame, my whole life is an embarrasment.