i dont know what happened, they fell through a skylight that night truthfully all of us died even though only she was buried 6 ft deep. im tired of people telling me its not my fault. ITS ALL MY FAULT. im sick of this life! im sick of hiding what i have done and what i have become. im sick of always having to be happy! this is hardly any better then where i was! i still dont get the support i need, i still feel cornered, trapped, dying. slowly i get furious, it doesnt happen often, and it generally turns to tears. im fed up right now. im HATE this. i killed her, i should be n jail. i want to kill myself. <mod edit methods> i want to finaly be able to cry! i want tears to fill my sobs and threaten to drown me. im tired of these dry sobs where only a fear tears escape. im tired of being ignored im tired of being depended on and then shuned i hate people i hate the word family i hate myself i hate this life im tired, so tired im confused ond scared. im weak im fragile i want someone to lean on i want to be held while i cry i want someone to come after me when i runaway. i want to runaway. i try to help other people but right now i really need help. everything is chaos i am chaos how can one body contain this? i need to let it out.. how the hell do i let it out? SOMEONE HELP ME. i just cant do this much longer, im not strong enough to continue to survive.