I've suffered with depression for a few years... but recently it's got worse. Even if something good happens, it's like my mind works to make everything seem awful again. My friends don't understand that I actaully am depressed and not just in a bad mood now and then, so they basically just ignore me if I don't seem happy, or they have a go at me for it. Part of why I'm so down is due to family, so I can't talk to any of my family about it, and I don't want to talk to my boyfriend because I know how bad it makes him feel that he can't help me. However, I can't face going to the doctors and talking face to face with a stragner, and the last thing i want is anti-depressants. Besides, I always feel that people are just thinking that I'm too young to be depressed or to have a reason to be unhappy and that I'm just attention seaking. But I have no idea how to make myself feel better.