People on SF have told me to messege them, or talk to them when I want to do something dangerous to myself. Even my mom has asked me to talk to her Well I can't talk to my mom cause it's to awkward. And I'm embarrassed to email, or PM the people on SF who told me to email them. It feel's like I'm whining or interupting something important. And I'm also scared to open up to people to much. I will tell them after I cut, What happened before now, but I can't talk to people before I cut. The reason I'm posting this is because, I am fighting with the urge to cut at this moment.