So i got in a little trouble a few years back (about 13 or 14 yrs old then) and i ended up being....multiple times by multiple people. i had a boyfriend who would.....me and beat the shit out of me and i havent had a serious boyfriend since then (im almost 17 now). and recently i was finally ending it but i wasnt successful. i overdosed but i was about 15 minutes away from total organ shutdown. i was so angry. im tired of the sleepless nights and the sexless, relationshipless life im going to have. I flinch when people touch me. i have uncontrollable panic attacks. i wish i were dead every minute of every day. and the worst part is i cant bring myself to tell my councilor, therapist, or psychiatrist. and im never going to get better until i do, but i just cant tell them. i cant. i hate being alive.