So i have to show them. Well. I wouldnt say im suicidal, because i know death is too good for me. I have hurt so many people, so many times, that i want to feel the pain that i've inflicted on them. I want to hurt myself so bad that i will be wishing for death. I want to hurt myself so bad that they will all see how truly sorry i am for hurting them. I just dont know how, and that is killing me. I dont know if it will make sense to anyone else, but it makes sense in my head. They dont think im serious. I am serious. Dead serious. Just wanted to say that.