I can't.

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by whoaaxxsamm, Jan 10, 2011.

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  1. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    Just freakin' kill me, please.

    I don't care.

    I'm freakin' out.

    My body hurts.

    I can't breathe.

    I can't do this.

    I'm such a failure.
  2. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    Sam, what's up buddy?

    Talk to me :hug:
  3. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    God, I can't breathe properly.

    Why won't it just stop all together?

    Everyone would be happy.

    They would think they were sad, but deep down, they would feel relief.

    Please, stop my heart from beating.

    I can't take the pain.
  4. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    Sam just take some big, deep breaths in and out. Nice and slowly.

    Is there something that has upset you.

    You are a beautiful woman inside and out and no one would be relieved or happy to have you go.
  5. Pienp

    Pienp Active Member

    <mod edit, TDM>

    Can you tell us what's going on with yourself? According to your posting log I don't think that you want to die. If you would want to die, you would have done it already.
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  6. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    I'm kind of tired of people telling me that.

    It's like you want to push me to do it, or something.

    I don't want to die, I just don't want to hurt anymore.

    I'm done posting.

    I'm done complaining.

    I'm done telling people when I'm sad.

    From now on, I'm always happy.

    It's not like people will know the difference!

    I'm sorry Domo, thank you for your kind words.
  7. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    Sam if you are hurting you are allowed to talk about it and post. Don't let anyone (including yourself!) make you feel otherwise.

    You don't need to be sorry either :hug:

    Are you seeing a therapist?
  8. Pienp

    Pienp Active Member

    Wtf I don't want to push anyone to do anything. I don't want to hurt you, I'm sorry if I did. I just don't value life very much.
  9. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    I am, but when I try to talk, my mind goes blank.

    It's almost like I have no reason to even be sad.

    Urgh, I can't even look after myself.

    That scares me.

    I chase everyone away.

    I'm so alone.

    I have to go to school in 3 hours.

    Sigh. Can't I just hide forever?

    That way no one will get hurt by me.

    That way, I won't be seen for people to think I'm crazy.

    I just want to scream.
  10. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    Pienp, I'm sorry.

    I didn't mean you did.

    I meant that's how I take it when people in general tell me that.
  11. Pienp

    Pienp Active Member

    How old are you?
  12. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    I'm only 18.
  13. Pienp

    Pienp Active Member

    Do you know why are you feeling so bad? Have you been bullied at school or something like that?

    You are still very young so I don't think you should kill yourself yet. Take it easy:

  14. Domo

    Domo Well-Known Member

    Have you thought about writing some things down and giving it to your therapist to read? That's what i do when it's too hard at first to say.

    And you are sad, that's reason enough. It doesn't have to be because you have no roof over your head or anything like that. You deserve to be happy.

    And scream. Bury your heard in your pillow and scream and cry if you need too. You don't have to bottle it up.
  15. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    It's really not so black and white.

    My whole life has been a constant roller coaster.

    I just can't forget.

    I don't want anyone else to leave me.

    I'm very alone.

    I'm just falling apart piece by piece, that's all.

    Sorry to have bothered you with my stupidity.
  16. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    Thank you.

    I do appreciate this.
  17. Pienp

    Pienp Active Member

    Hey my life too has been one stupid fucking roller coaster. After graduating from school I went to the army as a military police because we all need need to do that shit here in Finland. After that I got my first jobs and went on studying business and economics.

    Now I'm 1 year from graduating but I don't want to. There's really nothing to look forward to. It's all the same shit; you get thrown around by a bunch of fucking assholes 24/7 and what you gain from that? Nothing, your just closer to death every fucking day and also getting older by the day.

    We hang here for some time, 50, mayby 70 year? After that, we die. That's it. Why wait? The end results are the same.
  18. whoaaxxsamm

    whoaaxxsamm Well-Known Member

    You're looking at it wrong though.

    It's not the end result we should be focusing on, it's what in between the beginning and the end.

    I just don't like what's in between mine so far.

    It's just filled with pain and disappointment, and abandonment.
  19. Pienp

    Pienp Active Member

    The between is complete bullshit and the end result is the same always. Why waste your time and energy doing some random shit on this planet Earth, when the journey you are taking is not enjoyable.
  20. nolonger

    nolonger Well-Known Member

    People probly want to change it, so they can be 'happy' or what ever. 'Happiness is the journey, not the destination." Or something.
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