Am so tired this week of everything. I seem to be going around in circles and getting nowhere. One thing happens after another. I'm not sure if I should stay at SF or just wander off into the night. I don't want to hurt anyone or people I now consider true friends. But, I am what I am. Its not worth it and i've said it before here, stay away from me. So perhaps I am the one that needs to stay away. That makes more sense. Yet, we as humans, are social creatures. Or so they say. I am sorry for all your pain. I wish I could help, but I obviously can't. I wish I could hold some of you and figure out a way for us all to get better, but I can't do that either. Right now, all I can do is try to make it to the morning. Then repeat, day after day. I don't think I have the courage, yet alcohol is a great tool for building up courage. what a joke. I wish I could disappear. I am so sorry.