Thank you all, I apologize, its been a rough couple of weeks.
Hey MoAnamCara!
Your not alone - I had a real sh** couple of weeks - months - years - decades!
But the past couple of weeks - and certain things - have set me back big time. Set back - not dead and buried - but I'm sick of it also!
At least you had the courage to nail up your colours to the post - me? I've got 'cool' on my emoticon - before that 'Yeehaw' - I mean - WTF? If I was Yeehaw - no way I'd be here - come on now! I'd have to be partying somewhere!!
So don't worry about slipping up - happens to everyone - and on this world its about par for the score really - anyone not feeling depressed at some point - you got to be insane really.
Anyhow - hope your feeling a little bit better - and you are always welcome to chat to me - I know we don't know each other that well - but even so I know more about you than some of your friends I guess! That is how it is here - its strange in some ways - but good that we do this as its just people using the technology of the day to connect to others even if its a tenuous kinda link.
But we're all real people here - and going through a bad time at times - and U always appreciate the kind words which come my way off people who are struggling in their own lives but who find time to say something positive.
Well - alcohol - not my thing - but I'm not judging because I get high and - its better than an overdose for sure - but - not really something you can recommend to others. Everyone has their own process - but you should reach out to someone if you can.
Disappearing is easy for me - don't answer the phone, intercom - so on and so forth.
Thanks for sharing - it means a lot actually and don't feel shame for being brave enough to admit what most others have not the courage to do.
Its not easy - but makes it easier for others to open up also.
Anyhow - sorry to see you this down - and hope you bounce back up off all the heartache sometime soon - me also, you got to hope for that and it might just happen.
But if you want to die - with no pain - just pray to God and it WILL happen.
sure - keep doing it and - well - one day - one night - lol - I was right!
I wish I could make things ok - maybe if everyone thought the same way we would be ok and the world would be a nicer place for all.
Your always nice on here - to so many people me also - so thanks for that as it means a lot especially when many here are going through so much yet still have a kind word.
Anyhow - bad couple of weeks eh? - I match that also.
Damn the world sometimes! Or idiots in it who make it less nice place.
I mean - I have no hard feelings against the world - like no grudge against faults in the earth which cause earthquakes. The world might kill us but with no malice - a falling tree - hurricane - we accept that.
Its the cruelty of people that hurts
But sometimes just depression itself - that hurts - and be careful you don't blame everyone at that point - or cut off so long that you lose touch and have nobody to talk to when you are feeing down.
I think that makes the difference - even just coming here - thank God you said something and get a reaction without being judged.
Most of us fear being judged - the label of depression, madness - we don't want that and its not who we are - not really!!
So chill out Mo - you are not alone - and I hope that you feel a little bit better now that I confessed some blues and maybe a few others add to the general chorus of 'we wished we was dead" - We wished it - not wish it! - or wish it but not really want it.
Anyhow - good luck and hope tomorrow is a better day.
No - I mean - I really hope tomorrow is a better day!
for me also!
I got to get a better day in soon - to make up for the **** days if you pardon my language!
Cheers.