I seriously need help..... I know exactly how I could end it, and I have everything I need here in my room... But I've locked everything away, in a box that can't be opened without being noisy. But I could still open it, my brother is still downstairs talking to my dad. They would not hear..... But I don't feel like I need to kill myself, I just... want it. I haven't seen my best friend in years... I can't go and meet her, she's in another country........ And my boyfriend wasn't here in weeks either.... The only person I have is myself.... And my teddybears and other plushies..... I've made some of them myself, because my parents think I should be old enough not to buy any more of them..... But for me they are kinda important, I gave everyone an own name and a special charakter...... I always talk to them when I feel lonely, I feel crazy when I just talk to myself, so I talk to them and everything's okay. Mostly I let them answer in my head, so that it sounds like a phonecall to my brother.... I think he thinks I'm crazy. But yeah, I could be killing myself right now, so as long as I talk to my plushies or write here, I won't die, right?