i could use a reset button

hello suicideforum,
im back, and know of nothing to write, but i have this anguish inside that i need to release and im losing ways to do so, i dont know what i should do from here, it seems like the wells are running dry and the clock is ticking relentlessly. i try to rationalise myself but it gets difficult, i make the wrong decisions time and time again, its getting ridiculous. I wish i had a way of turning back time to the good old days, when life was simple and worth living. what the future will bring i cant say, but the lights are dimming, ill be dead by 21

 

Believe me, I truly know how you feel and I'd be a liar if I said I didn't also see the lights dimming in my own life. What I can say, however, is tomorrow at least has the possibility of being better than today. We just gotta find the strength to make it somehow. :sigh:

* By the way, if you find that reset button can I borrow it when you're done with it?

 

I think that you could go back to the good old days, but you probably need to get on some meds or try some other treatment.

I know that you have had difficulties in seeing a doctor and getting treatment.

please try to work on the difficulties, talk about them here. if you can tell a doctor what is really going on without editing, you might be able to get some good treatment and feel better soon.

or maybe try the book in my signature?