As mentioned previously, I've gone a couple months without intoxicating myself. The most I've ever done since then was have a couple high-quality, good tasting beers. I decided to quit in order to improve my health and try to restore some friendships with those that I estranged in my high, goofy state. (I spent about 6 months cycling through just about everything that isn't PCP, meth or heroin). However, all that's been accomplished is that I've lost my friends who do smoke pot, and I'm angrier, and on a more regular basis. It sounds terribly wrong, but I know I'd feel better if I could just chop up a few lines right now. Good "God" I need to numb my brain.