On my way to work. I slid across four lanes of traffic and back and almost hit a pole. I was not going fast(20-25 miles per hour). I had made a very light motion to avoid getting off at an unwanted exit. The roads here are covered in ice and snow I some how missed the on coming traffic and they missed me. I finally ended up on the side of the road facing on coming traffic. I just waited for a clearing and got back on the roads. I was not shaking, scared or anything. I did not pray out for God to save me I just let things happen as they did. I really wished God would have just let me go. Life is very unbarable for me. The only concern I had was that my car not getting damaged, because that would mean I would have to quit my job because no buses come out this way. Which would mean no money or job and that would drive further into depression. Just yesterday. I kept telling God I wanted out and to forgive me and many of the programs I watched on TV dealt with death or suicide. He almost answered my prayers Almost.