Well, I did it. After spending a lifetime wishing to be left alone and hated, and wanting to kill myself as a result, I've met my goal in a different way. So killing myself is no longer needed. I had an affair which ended with the other woman, my wife, my kids, my parents, my bothers and sister, friends, and extended family all refusing to associate with me, and hating me. I lost everything I owned, my job, my retirement funds, all friends and family. All I have is an old car, $80 in cash, and access to this computer in the public library. Eventually I'll run of out money and have to sell the car too. No need to kill myself. My new life will do it for me slowly over time. I hope it's painful for a long time too. I will eventually find an open area far away from people so that my body will not pollute anything as it decomposes. I've polluted this world long enough just by existing. Soon, I will no longer exist in any way, and I'll meet my goal completely. I'm so happy for everyone else.