A few weeks ago I almost got raped by a coworker, this was about two weeks after my exfiance and I broke up. He found out, and gave me a knife to protect myself. Last night I took some sleeping pills to sleep (only two!) and I grabbed his knife and dug it into my left arm. Then I did it again. And again. And again. I have never done this before but it felt good. Now, I am here at work and I really want to go to the bathroom to cut myself some more. How fucking ironic - I'm using the knife he gave me to protect myself. If only he knew..... How do you guys stop from cutting yourselves? What do you tell yourselves?