I cut

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Ehlena, Apr 9, 2013.

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  1. Ehlena

    Ehlena Member

    I've been trying so hard to not cut. I'm trying more for my friend than myself. I love him so dearly. I hate hurting him when I do cut. I can't stop though.
    And don't want to sometimes.
    When I cut I like it. I like the control the pain the feelings of release.

    Then after I feel so guilty. It's only sense I've met this friend have I started to feel bad about cutting. I hurt him everytime I cut. And I don't want to hurt him. I love him so much. He is so special To me.

    But I can't stop cutting. I need the release.
    But I need my friend.

    I hope to never hurt him again.

    Just at war with myself right now.

    And feel so bad about hurting the only person that has ever shown an interest in me.
    Love you K
  2. Anonymousnobody

    Anonymousnobody Well-Known Member

    I'm sorry you are struggling. I've never cut before, so I don't know what it's like. I wish I could give some advice, but....I can't. I'm sorry. I wish I knew how to help. Best of luck, and know you are loved :)
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