ive honestly thought it, and ive never known anyone that has accomplished less in my amoutn of time.. im so fucking worthless and stupid i need to die.. i need it not because i want it, but because i deserve it. did you know i somehow managed to fuck over my parents because i selfishly wante dto go to japan? because i told myself i was worth sometihng? tha i could do this, and to prove a point i went, and when i got back my parents had given up the rent money for that month, just to fund me.. FUCK ME!! im so fucking worthless and believe me..im gettig what i deserve very soon, believe me. and you know what? i deserve every fucking bit of torment i get. i can not only see ahy my parents fucking hate me, but i understand it as well. and i dont blame them for a second..ive also ran up 9000 dollars in credit cards, and then i also have been lieing to them lately so i wouldnt have to be around them.. you see? do you see what i mean? i need to die, no..i hve to die.. its the only way to rid the world of my F***ING CURSE... F**K ME!! FU*K ME I NEED TO DIE!!