Ive been alone for the past 5 years. Before that i was very popular. I had the hottest girlfriend. Everyone liked me. These days i just seem to piss everyone off. And i dont realise how im doing it. Going from really popular to nothing isnt easy. I havnt been coping well. I naturally live for interaction with people. To be touched by someone else. everyone i meet, i have to drink with them. I drink myself to excess and ruin everything. Quitting alcohol wont fix anything though. Its my personality. Ive been alone so long now, i dont care if i die. Im ready to die. Im just too friggin scared to kill myself. I feel so pathetic. This reality of me being such an irritation to people is driving me insane.i feel like i need to apologise for every move i make. Every breath i take. I just want to know if there is someone out there like me.