I desperatley want to die now

[amylou]

I want to die so badly i JUST WISH EVERYTHING COULD BE OVER AND DONE WITHIN A FLASH AND WITHIN THE BLINK OF AN EYE. I hate my life so much and dont see any point in fighting when ive already lost the battle nobody would miss me anyway.

I just hope that i get it right this time, then no longer will I search for my way out

 

[Sadeyes]

Hi and sorry things seem so rough....is there something that is going on now for you? maybe if you post about it, there will be someone who can relate and you will find the support you deserve...plez PM me if I can help in any way...big hugs, J

 

[amylou]

I dont no theres loads of things really. I ve been trying for a long time to kill myself but never get it right or get cuaght in the process. The main problem is my gran died before christmas and i want to be with her. But it feels wrong saying that becuase its like im using her death as an excuse when thats not the case. As a child I was abused alot and thats mainly why I want to kill myself . I selfharm to so maybe ...............

 

[Sadeyes]

I also was abused and tortured when i was young, and have found a way, after wise therapy and medication, to be in the world without my past trauma being all I function from...I would not kill myself, as I would never give my father or my mother the satisfaction of having stolen everything from me...and fortunately, there are more reasons to live today than in the past...please know that there are unfortunately many ppl here who can relate to our pasts...please continue to post and PM me if I can be there for you...big hugs, J

 

[amylou]

I ghuess so. The people that do the abusing are the evil ones but the pain for me anyway has never gone away. I still see and hear them and I relive as if it was yestuarday. I dont want to keep reliving it I ve wanted to break free for so long now. But suicide seems my only way.

 

[mortdesinos]

I have found a way, after wise therapy and medication, to be in the world without my past trauma being all I function from...I would not kill myself, as I would never give my father or my mother the satisfaction of having stolen everything from me...and fortunately, there are more reasons to live today than in the past...

I'm proud of you! :hug:

 

[amylou]

Me to. Im feeling a bit better now but dont no how long for. Sad eyes you seem a strong person