i did it again

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by xsomewhatdamagedx, May 26, 2011.

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  1. xsomewhatdamagedx

    xsomewhatdamagedx Well-Known Member

    i cut up my right arm a few hours ago i guess i was expecting to feel better like i used to but to be honest i felt nothing i didn't get any relief from it i don't even know why i did it.after five or six years i though i would never have to go through this again but with the way things have been going lately i though that cutting myself would give me some sort of relief. theres no one i know who has self harmed and i dont want to talk to my friends on the net about this because i know most of thm dont give a damn whatsoever (thats facebook friends for you huh) i didn't cut reallycut that deep partly because i couldn't find anything really sharp in the middle of the night without waking someone up but yeah i did bleed quite a bit.
     
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    This is so sad, but I am comforted that for whatever reason it was, you did not find anything else...maybe if you journalled in a diary or such, you can find a voice to express what is going on for you...there are many people here who struggle with SH, so I am sure someone will understand...big hugs, J
     
  3. xsomewhatdamagedx

    xsomewhatdamagedx Well-Known Member

    i dont know what to do with my pent up pain i have tried getting help but nothing seems to make anything better anymore.even if i cant be helped i want to help other people
     
  4. APYBFJS

    APYBFJS Member

    Keep hope, and you are doing great helping others.
     
  5. xsomewhatdamagedx

    xsomewhatdamagedx Well-Known Member

    thanks.
    i just feel completely at my wits end no one in my life believes me when i try to tell them the way i feel i end up feeling like such a burden on everyone.
     
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