What the fuck is wrong with this forum/people? I am awestruck that is all I can say. I am fucking awestruck. I tell people about this terrible thing I did to someone who I would consider a friend, and who considers me one of her best friends. And people play it off like I did not do anything to wrong? Seriously, how fucking hard is it to agree. This isn't my standard I hate myself speech. I did something that is morally reprehensible, that would have earned me a beating and people are telling me it is ok. I did something awful. And everyone here tells me it is ok, when it is clearly not ok? God why? Seriously how hard is it to agree that I did something disgusting? Regardless of whether or not I knew I was doing it. Why can't people tell me I was wrong? WHY EVERYONE LOOKING AT ME WITH THOSE "aww its ok" EYES ARE JUST MAKING THINGS WORSE. Please someone tell me why people don't think I am at fault for what I did? I just don't understand.