A few days ago I felt very lonely and I was making something for myself for lunch and I saw some of my father's pain pills. I took three of them, a few minutes passed by and I started to feel the affects of them. The minute I felt the affects of them, I already felt bad for using them but I couldn't take back on what I did. The whole day I felt as if I was going to throw up but I never did, instead I was laying down on my bed trying to get rid of the feeling from them but they made my whole body numb and I no longer felt lonely anymore. Instead I felt good off of them and I feel really guilty for ever taking them. I used to take pain pills in the past with my ex boyfriend who was addicted to them and we both got high off of them. We spent so much money on them and now I'm starting to feel like I want to start using them again, but I promised myself that I wouldn't touch them again. I feel so awful about taking them, I never told my boyfriend now about taking them cause I don't want to worry him and have him break up with me cause that's what I'm afraid what will happen. I don't plan on telling my parents either about taking the drugs cause I know that they'll yell at me. I'm not ready to face the consequences about taking them. I'm deathly afraid about telling anyone so instead I plan to tell my therapist about this only.