I don't know how to start to tell but someone told me that I am BPD. I am suffering for years to not try but i did to kill myself once.... I am so isolated, anger... I even fight with men. I take coke for nearly a year by now by own afford and never fuck for that. no one can touch me even the drug sellers afraid me! I talk to much now. I even studied which way to kill myself without long time on suffering! I have no friends and I cut off my family. Anyone please help me to talk to me even I don't know!