This probally belongs either in positive or self-harm thread, but I put it hear cause I think it will help ppl. I was at work, and I saw a friend of mines, (I don't know if we are still friends). And he saw me but didn't say anything, and I got mad, but I didn't explode:smile:. But I was both mad and sad, he used me for money, said racist things about me ( I am black BTW) and when I was scared to go to West Tulsa cause of a ex-friend who said they will beat me up if I was around there, and I told him I was scared that my ex-friend will kick my ass, all he said was don't cuss in front of the kids (who were almost 13). So I was so upset, that I took a break, and went to QuikTrip to buy a razorblade to cut myself, the cashier didn't care if I did it or not. But he didn't have one. So I was more upset than before, but when I got home, I was glad that I didn't do it, I has went 4 months without cutting. And I didn't want to start over.