Simon and Garfunkel
What you did for your mother back then was a beautiful thing and it must have been hard for you to set your mind there and then to wanting to die only to wake up? Some people say suicide is a cowards way out, but it takes someone brave to want to die I think. Not to say it's the right answer

I'm glad you've had somebody to talk to now and it might be getting a little clearer. Defeating depressive thoughts is a bit like revising for me, break it all down into bitesize chunks, and sort each bit out individually if possible.
It's good your giving yourself just a little time to see things through and you've encouraged me to re-evaluate my own life and see if I can fix it which i'm very grateful for.
I'm glad i've gotten to speak to you, you seem like a generally good person, it's just a shame you got caught up in this world. The figures I read in the paper say that 1/3 people will suffer from a mental illness over their lives. I could stake a bet and say it's a lot more or will be a lot more.
I've not told anyone about my depression yet save a friend who I told when I was drunk years ago but promised him to keep it secret. I must have been 13 when the whole thing started, but I didnt get depressed till nearly 14, and even then it wasn't really bad. It's just that every time I got a depression 'attack' or 'bout' it got worse.
I'm wondering when the next one will hit me now because I know it's going to do me in if it gets any stronger.
As for the static, in order for it to clear were going to need humanity to change. More sentiment is needed and sincerity. It's always been the person with the biggest mouth that gets heard and yet even the smallest subtlest voice can carry the grandest big solution <(NOFX - The Idiots are taking over). I spose democracy is a way of letting everyone be heard, but it needs a lot of work.
One last thing, there are a lot of really good caring people on this site so talk to everyone you can, get different points of view.
And there's a section called the Uncertainty Principle where people go to ask all sorts of questions and some of them bring up really interesting topics, like "why do most helpers always need help?" always good to take a look.
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
Beneath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp