I die a little at every party I am at lately. It just seem so wrong. I want to scream. I want to judge, IT IS NOT MY PLACE !!! I am not one to judge, As I am not pure of heart. I fail in the darkness of my own quarters but not in the presence of external souls. They are secret and I hold there honor as high as my kins. I hold more regard then they do for themselves. Damn me for not being able to protect them from lesser evil. Forsaken I say , forsaken. Now it is late, much to late, much to late for love honor and purity. I am sorry, you are the one I wanted to save and I failed you tonight. blinded, diverted and subverted by evil. The guard in shining armor went home and left the maid to her destiny by the hand of the devils gorilla. I failed you, just to save my own soul I left you. Just to save me I failed to protect the one I was sent to find and help. I do not like to loose battles and the war I don´t even know If I want to challenge after this. IT IS NOT MY PLACE. So the dim curtains sets again. I will re-live this day again. as always with battles lost you get to replay them until you get it right. The dead walks again and the living cant see... as always I die in the end of the day. Its a way for me to stay off the radar. Its a way for me to disperse and not to deal with life. And when I am gone I say "forget me already" I am nobody and nobody was here. you have been submitted to the cruel hear of the devil with angel wings. Turn your eyes, he is the one appointed to testing you.