hi , how are you feeling lately Last year i had suicidal thoughts more than ever in my life here is why! 1- I was failing in love. Why? I was asking any girl on the street or at the mall out and i felt ugly and unwanted afterwards. 2- I was failing in finding a job? I tried for a year to apply and start my carreer but no one gave me a chance this year none of these issues have been fixed. However Ive been thinking about suicide less often because: i stopped carring about girls and having sex, I stopped thinking about jobs . Now im at home no friends no life and im learning how to program on the computer. It's so boring but my life has thought me that i cannot do better...My only fear is that i end up on the street in die cause i cannot find a job. sure im not happy but im not suicidal these days cause i take more care of myself and don't go out and speak to beautifull girls telling them i want them ...im sure on day ill be a 40 year old virgin and regret who i am ... Questions ? I want to ask you few questions cause im looking to understand why life is making me feel so bad . Maybe someone experiences can be a huge help . If i don't have a job and friends and im lonely how can I be happy? If I go to the mall and like a girl and try to make her laugh and make her mine and I fail how can I be happy? Im 24 just to remind you. How can I change my life. should I ask girls out on facebook maybe they will report me and i wil be banned. there is no place to have friends and everywhere i go i get threated like a criminal and a bad person and it kind of hurts me cause i like people in general and would like to have friends and a life...is it too late since im 24 or can i still have girlfriends, dates, a carreer and a life...do I have a mental problem if im failling at this or is it just my personnality ? Why do I lack confidence and i don't know why. am i gonna play video games all my life and die of misery or lack of money and food?