I disgust myself

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by lymeinside, Jan 5, 2009.

  1. lymeinside

    lymeinside Well-Known Member

    i really really do.

    it goes beyond self hated... self disgust.

    there aren't even words. i don't even feel comfortable with saying whats on my mind. there are deep feelings of disgust that i can't even talk about.

    i'm just a really horrible person.

    i haven't done anything illegal, but it's just... not good.

    i'm a huge burden... this isn't even an argueable point. it's 100% fact. and I hate myself for it.

    i don't know how to change. maybe i can't.

    i hate being such a disappointment to everyone. i hate it. i wanted to be someone that everyone could be proud of. but i'm not.

    i'm sorry that this makes no sense to those reading. i just need to write.
  2. aki

    aki Well-Known Member

    :( that's very sad :( we all make mistakes, all of us. Do you know where these feelings come from? Something from your past maybe? Because figuring out where they come from could help you.
    But don't be hard on yourself. I'm sure you're not horrible. :hug:
  3. Anime-Zodiac

    Anime-Zodiac Well-Known Member

    Don't be hard on yourself. Hope you feel better soon.