Its not so much that I dislike it, but that I will never fit it, I'll always be an outcast. I am Indian, from India and living in the USA and generally, there is pressure on us to attain extreme academic success, to have a well-paying job, to marry a nice Indian wife, have kids who will attain greater success than you, and so on and so forth. Of course its not exclusive to us, you'll see this in also Chinese as well for instance. Its good that we have these high expectations on us, we are expected to succeed, our elders know we can, and yet it is also very bad if we fail to meet these expectations. I am very lucky my parents are not as strict and hard on their kids as many other Indian parents. Well, I'm sure they are disappointed in me, but hide it well when they see their Indian friends with their kids far more successful than me. Somehow, I screwed up and fell off the "path", strayed off the "plan". And its not this as well, but you know that some cultures are not as friendly to depression as others, like Indians, Chinese, other Asians. I hear of many of the youth in these groups that commit suicide because they failed a major exam, failed to get into the college their parents wanted them to get in. And I'm sure they could not vent, not talk about it, because they are not supposed to be depressed, its even more of a taboo than it already is. They had to hold all of it inside until they couldn't take it anymore. If someone was there to listen, they might still be alive. Why the hell it have to be taboo? Anyone can suffer from depression, regardless of race, ethnicity, gender, nationality, religion, and all of these things that divide us. So then why are some groups less empathetic to depression than others? I'm sure if I commit suicide, my parents would lie and say I died of a heart attack for example, to avoid the shame. I dislike my culture because of this, I dislike other Indians, its not their fault, but I somehow strayed off and am a complete and total freak. And yet, I have only been with Indians my entire life and only feel comfortable with them. I know if I tell these Indians that I dislike my culture, I will be extremely ostracized, as I have when I told my mom.