Earlier today I woke up and basically the first thing on my mind is that I want to die. I have no real friends I can count on.
People don't like someone whos in their mid 20s lives at home with his parents and has no friends, no job, only enemies who would love to harm me. I'm basically a pariah a social outcast. I'm basically just existing, with all of my ailments(how I feel), my social issues(enemies/no friends) I'm basically doomed to not have anything close to what most people view as normal.
I want to be a productive successful person but really all I can do is get by and I've made so many mistakes im reminded very often of things. I know people judge me as being lazy a deadbeat or whatever but I'm so disabled I'm doing my best and it's still not very much a life worth living.
Maybe I cursed myself a few years ago I said to myself in a prayer type manner if I haven't made anything of my life just end it for me. I don't know if there's a god or creator maybe there is maybe not.
Anyways I need some rest and maybe then I'll feel better....
People don't like someone whos in their mid 20s lives at home with his parents and has no friends, no job, only enemies who would love to harm me. I'm basically a pariah a social outcast. I'm basically just existing, with all of my ailments(how I feel), my social issues(enemies/no friends) I'm basically doomed to not have anything close to what most people view as normal.
I want to be a productive successful person but really all I can do is get by and I've made so many mistakes im reminded very often of things. I know people judge me as being lazy a deadbeat or whatever but I'm so disabled I'm doing my best and it's still not very much a life worth living.
Maybe I cursed myself a few years ago I said to myself in a prayer type manner if I haven't made anything of my life just end it for me. I don't know if there's a god or creator maybe there is maybe not.
Anyways I need some rest and maybe then I'll feel better....