ive been sitting in my bed for days. i want to tell my friends that i want to commit suicide, but i dont have the guts. i want to stop crying and being upset, but its hopeless. i dont want to go to a doctor, i dont want to go through any steps. i either want to just talk to a friend or give up. i am useless, if i am like this. i am only useless because i have been told by multiple people that exact comment. i dont want to be useless, and if i spend one more day like this, its most likely going to be my last.