Here we freakung go again. My dad and sibilings along with me have made plans to go to *country* as we do every tear. This said *contry* is the one I was born in but I moved when I was 9. I fucking love that place. I would give up my kidneys to spend some time there. It’s the only ONLY thing I look forward to and love in my life. It’s basically the reason I wakebup every fucking morning and keep pushing just to see my beloved country and family along with friends. Some of my best memories are from them and yeah.. I bet you get the point. Even because of corona, we are allowed to go bc there are almoust NO cases left there, and quarantine had been lifted a few months ago. Now heres the problem, my mom is trying SO HARD to sabotage this for me. She is trying IN EVERY SINGLE POSSIBLE WAY to keep me here, and not to go. The reasons to why she doesn’t want to go are a bit complicated so I won’t mention those. We just had a fight about it and she doesn’t let go, she keeps saying the same shit over and over because she doesn’t want me or my other family to go. I told her that I would kill myself if I didn’t get to go, yeah I regret I said that bc it’s a stupid fucking reason but I just CAN’T stand my life here anymore. I want to leave, at least for a day. I want to be there so fucking bad. Idk what i’ll do if i don’t.