I just want to stop feeling the way I do, and stop being the person I am. No one can help me but myself and I'm ready to give up trying. I have a couple of methods planned and I'm just waiting until the right time and place. I know I'm young but I've run out of steam and I don't want to keep trying and failing. The only reason I haven't killed myself is I'm afraid of failing. I've tried and failed and it's exhausting. I'm thinking sometime this month, before christmas. I don't have much time left.