After 2 months of abject despair, I finally feel more like myself. I have fixed a lot of my personal problems (work and home), and I am feeling more like myself. I don't actually know what to do with myself; I've felt so wretched for so long, my body is in conflict about what to do. I'm just so relieved. I know that it won't last forever, as these feelings always return at some point, for some reason. I know this from past experience. As such, I'm going to continue with my antidepressant medication to see if it helps me in the longer term. I'm just so relieved, but it will take me a while to get used to it. This site has been an enormous help to me.