Right now, I feel awful and my Saturday is ruined because of a hateful, mean professor I have this semester. I am a very quiet and sensitive person and she is singling me out because of it. I try to stay calm and not let small things get to me, but she is really pushing my buttons. I just want to scream and leave or drop the class, but I can't because my family is pressuring me to graduate this summer. All I need to do is to get past this, but she is making it hard for me. She just reminds me of how much I can't fit into this world and how much I don't belong here. I wish I was dead so that everyone and everything could just leave me the hell alone!!!!