I know I probably annoy people with my posts, nobody likes self-loathing and et cetera, but I honestly don't have anyone to vent to. Anyways, I just don't belong in this world. I know it may sound cliche, but I don't fit into the mould of so-called normal people. Nobody has the same values as me. I feel so alone and I just wish I was born in a different generation. Or better yet, not even born at all. Ever since I was sixteen I have believed that my purpose has been to die. I just didn't accept it. So I just repressed it instead. But it's more evident now than it has ever been before. I have been trying to come up with plans and researching too. I've been trying to rationalize it as well. I'm not going to explain any further because it's against the rules. But I think I'm soon ready. I'm starting to find solace in the thought of not existing anymore.