I just don't. Its been days, weeks even. I don't know I've never had a good sense of time. I don't have a reason to get up in the morning, so, I don't. But I can't sleep at night. I'll go for days awake only to pass out for a good day or two. I can't cry. I'm sad. All the time. And I just can't? And ot hurts so much. I have one good thing in my life and it just terrifies me. Nothing lasts forever. Nothing. And what am I supposed to do when that good thing dies? Nothing, I want to end it all before that happens. And you know what? I could. So so easily. And I might just do that. Nobody would miss me.