I use to care if anything knew my feelings with these thoughts I've been getting for couple years.. i guess.. they come and go.. so suppose i thought maybe it was due to my lack of a healthy diet and deal with it when it came. I havnt tracked on this issue because i dont know how the outcome will be.. truthfuly im afraid to discover why iam entertaining these thoughts. i am feeling better after typing these just the intent of knowing that someone will read this. Well i assume someone will.. anyways um i dont talk to people about this feeling because i dont care enough to hear them explain why i should do this and listen to their thoughts of how i should be when they ... no one knows anyone really.. and to judge them or pity them for their um personality is something i walk away from. the biggest problem when talking to someone about my feelings is.. this might sound weird to people who look through life in a different liens.. ..impossable when i have eye contact.. also if i know you.. then its over.. i have something in that tries to sneak into to people and harm them bit by bit.. truth be told.. (since i dont know u in reallife i dont care that iam being truthful about this) i think most people have this feeling.. its only an assumption. So i hope to get from you if u have to respond a encouraging "MEANINGFUL" not a "your fine" i hate that shallow crap so if u bring any of that shallow crap to me then u better add me to ignore because your **** *** is on it. thank you for reading i do feel better after typing this.. idk i guess it worked this time..