So there's no reason to be down on myself. Am I supposed to go on with my life as if I have no cares in the world and that everybody is suffering but I shouldn't? I've been told that some people are dealing with worse things than me so I should feel fortunate that I don't have much problems. The more I think about that, the more I wish something was going wrong with me so I will fit in with everybody else. I might just be ignoring my problems and pretend that they don't bother me. What are my problems? Nothing, right? I just hate that I survived from my last attempt. Then I wouldn't have to cope in this stupid world anymore. Just wish I can sleep and never wake up. I want to give up so much, even though I don't know why. I AM crazy. I hate trying to meet up to everyone's wishes and trick myself that my life IS good and worth living for. I have yet to feel that myself instead of what people think.