I am worthless.. Iam unloved.. I dont deserve life.. I dont deserve the name of White Dove cause i cant find peace.. i am usless , i am alone.. i am now seen as someone who cries wolf even here at a place where i reached out for help , reached out for a meaning or place to help ease my pain... I cant do nothing right.. I cant even post without it hurting others or others adding more to their thinking of me as crying wolf.. it doesnt matter anymore.. nothing matters anymore.. cant stop these tears , cant stop the pain.. it is unreal to others but very deep to me.. i am a terriable person. i cant do anything rioght, cant even do it right because something always interfers with it.. no need to reply.. im not here for attention.. i was here because i am hurting and in pain.. sorry i am not what you all needed me to be.. Sorry i hurt you all , i dont want any more hurt for anyone.. as long as im away there will be no more hurt.. i cant hurt anyone when im gone.. sorry , so very sorry.. i tried to help myself but have failed like always , my life means nothing.. totally nothing.. sorry , so so very sorry , i cant stand myself anymore. i cant stand the thought that i am causing others tom hate me more.. i dont need that.. i only needed peace.. peace between those i had hurt before i passed away, and realief from this pain that is so overwelming , thats all. Thats all i needed.. but yet im getting more hurt and im causing more hurt.. my heart cant take it.. it just cant sorry i hurt you all.