I want to kill myself. Well, obviously, because hello, on a frickin suicide forum... But anyway, it sounds insane but i can't seem to find the energy to do it. I'm perpetually on the edge of tears. People are sick of me being so depressing. I've had Body Dysmorphic Disorder for years and honestly i don't see a way out any more. I can't bear to look at myself or let anyone see me, to the extent that my life is closing down more and more u til i basically can't do anything. There is no one i can talk to. I've been theraped up to the eyeballs. I've tried and tried and tried. But i never feel better, only 50 shades of worse. I can't do this any more. I more want to be talked into suicide than out of it. I don't even know why i'm on here. There is nothing i want from anyone that they could actually do. This feels pointless but so does everything.