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****ing hell
It;s messed up. I **** ing hurt everyone real who tires to help. And I ****ing push away everyone who ****ing cares.
Nothing **** ing matters anymore, I can't even cut right tonight, its so ****ing stupid. I went ****ing deep, and nothing, I don't feel it anymore, it dose ****ing nothing. It's like I've ****ing ran out of blood
And like the ****er I am I asked a friend for **** ing help, cos she said she used to do it, she said she ****ing understood. Well shes ****ing bitch. She lied to me, and she knew what she was doing, she just wanted to get a kick from it.
And just like normal, I push her away,. just cos of that, and then I have to cut, and that means nothing. And now I have 3 sodding courseworks to do, cos my ****ing computer deleted all my ****ing work, and the ****ing cut. I want cut and cut and cut, until that's all there is, just cutting.
And I'm trying to help others? Why the **** would they take my advice, If I **** it up like normal real people get screwed. This is a **** ing mess. Should even be allowed to talk, I'm just gonna ****ing hurt everyone, and I don't even give a **** afterwards. Why the **** can't I care, when the **** did I lose that? Why the **** do I even bother without it. Can't even think. Maybe I should even be allowed to do that.
And all I'm ****ing doing is taking ****ing pills, and bleeding over my ****ing keyboard. I dont give a **** anymore, ****ing do it. Why **** don't you do it!
It;s messed up. I **** ing hurt everyone real who tires to help. And I ****ing push away everyone who ****ing cares.
Nothing **** ing matters anymore, I can't even cut right tonight, its so ****ing stupid. I went ****ing deep, and nothing, I don't feel it anymore, it dose ****ing nothing. It's like I've ****ing ran out of blood
And like the ****er I am I asked a friend for **** ing help, cos she said she used to do it, she said she ****ing understood. Well shes ****ing bitch. She lied to me, and she knew what she was doing, she just wanted to get a kick from it.
And just like normal, I push her away,. just cos of that, and then I have to cut, and that means nothing. And now I have 3 sodding courseworks to do, cos my ****ing computer deleted all my ****ing work, and the ****ing cut. I want cut and cut and cut, until that's all there is, just cutting.
And I'm trying to help others? Why the **** would they take my advice, If I **** it up like normal real people get screwed. This is a **** ing mess. Should even be allowed to talk, I'm just gonna ****ing hurt everyone, and I don't even give a **** afterwards. Why the **** can't I care, when the **** did I lose that? Why the **** do I even bother without it. Can't even think. Maybe I should even be allowed to do that.
And all I'm ****ing doing is taking ****ing pills, and bleeding over my ****ing keyboard. I dont give a **** anymore, ****ing do it. Why **** don't you do it!