I've not spoken to literally anybody in months and by that I mean friends that I've known for years. I've not appeared online on any social network site or MSN for ages and it seems they have forgotten about me. I have nothing intresting to talk to them about anyway without boring the socks of them. My best friend has been moaning to others online saying I'm ignoring him but he knows what I'm like and that when I'm bored I feel really down. He did something to really upset me the other month but he clearly doesn't think he did anything wrong and that also pissed me off. Nobody has rang, txt, emailed or facebooked me to check if im ok. I'm never asked to go out with them either on nights out but like you may know I'm not really meant to have friends or companions in life. One of my oldest friends has spent the last three years blanking and advoiding me despite us living down the road from eachother and the only the other week gave birth to twins and it came as a shock to me because I didn't know she was pregnant. I'm not expecting to be centre of attention or nothing but for some reason nobody is intrested in me unless I'm in a good mood or playing the fool by being funny or a clown. I've seen nothing but the same four walls for a long time now it's sad.