Does anyone else feel like not even asking for help, friends to chat to, etc.? I've just been sitting here, doing nothing and reading through posts, watching TV (staring at it, not really watching it), eating, killing time, and doing so for ages it seems. I don't have a reason to do anything, so I just exist. Everything bores me. I'm not even trying to do anything anymore... just waiting. The only thing I wish for maybe is a magic pill which would kill me instantly. Just to disappear completely, without any trace or further pain. Outside the sun is shinning, people are living, doing. The contrast makes my non-existent state even more accentuated. Sometimes I feel like I'm just going to stop eating and breathing, shrivel up and die. I wish nothing. I need nothing. Anyone else feels like this?