Basically, I can't find a job to save my life. I've been trying and trying and trying, but I just can't catch a fucking break. Every time a member of my family asks how I'm doing, I always have to tell them that I'm still not working. This always ends up turning into some discussion about trying to get me to go back to school for the third goddamn time. The problem is, I'm a failure at school. The work is always too hard for me and I'm not interested in much of anything, and if I tell my parents that, I always get told that "I'm not trying hard enough". Fuck that. I've tried to do the college thing twice already. It never works out. So I've been trying to find a job for the past year and a half, listening to everybody's shit about how I'm not doing anything, and it's been making me feel like crap. I've even signed up for a temporary employment facility, and still can't find any work. Nearly every day, I always have these thoughts floating in the back of my mind that I should just kill myself and save myself the feeling of misery. I'm so sick of always seeing everybody else around me achieving things and blowing through college or landing jobs like it were nothing at all, while I need to struggle so hard to even get half of that success. I just can't take much more of this.