I am a loser. I useless invisible spek of nothingness. I have no friends, cant make friends. all relationships i find myself in i always get hurt or left. It's happened all my life from childhood till now. I have an avoidant personality disorder, cant stand big public gatherings, cant stand being around strangers, it's hard enough to just leave the safety of my house. I hate being this way, yet i dont want to out. I just feel different to everyone else, they must think i am a freak, I just wish i fitted in somewhere. I just feel so socially inept now.