I SERIOUSLY dont fucking get people theses days, come crying to me with blah blah this or blah blah. Fair enough i can take that but people who's actions contredict everything they've fucking said to me really pisses me off. If you gonna do what ever u want to do any way, why fucking bother telling me all the things i get told!!!! i just dont fucking get it!!! it fucking hurts that i spend so much bloody time telling people things, calming them down and then i feel like i get it all fucking thrown right back in my fucking face! why the fuck should i bother any more if this what i fucking get. Yeah i can really see that people bloody care, what a load of fucking bollocks! im sick of being hurt and im sick of feeling like im being used when theres no one bloody left and that im the one in the wrong for fucking getting upset! exactly what fucking happened today. Im sick of this whole fucking situation! and im not the only fucking person. Can't people see what their bloody doing or they too fucking naive to even see that!?!? give a guy what he want right, make him happy, well maybe i should give this who wants something from me, exactly what he wants. He wants one thing otherwise he wouldnt of asked me that. So why not just fucking give it to him. The words from someone else 'at least someone will be happy' or something like that! im all about pleasing people, might aswell just degrade myself and show no repsect for myself and just fucking do what he wants! why fucking not. people making assumptions over the way im feeling. People are so fuckin naive if they dont fucking see what their doing! but fine keep going, people are allready the bloody edge, keep going the way you are and people are gonna fucking go mental. Im at the fucking edge, one more fucking thing and theres no turning back. Im fucking sick of feeling like this!!!! now i might be able to fucking sleep!